Yukimi-Kitsune

For years now, I've had a not-so-secret goal: to become a pilot. From the first time I flew to working for two years at an international airport, I've always had this skittish fascination with how the aircraft work. I've always also been very safety-conscious whether its flight safety or simple retail work safety and I've also seen what happens when safety is disregarded. That was another major factor in me saving to go to flight school: stupid people shouldn't fly planes and if I were to take a seat in a cockpit from a stupid person it'd be safer. That may sound bitchy but that was always my thought process when an airliner went down in Perm because the captain was drunk and the first officer incapable of flying that particular aircraft in that particular composition even in a simulator. I know what some people are thinking; they're thinking "But you're mentally ill!". I am but not in any way that would or should keep me from piloting aircraft, even commercially. I have Major

Merry Saturday aka Christmas. But, I'm a Neo-Druid, so today is just Saturday to me. Yup. I worked about six days in a row and have to work another five days in a row again after today. I'm tired but not complaining. I know my hours will be cut back before too long. Not complaining about that either. I'm tired but nothin' I can't handle. I have a goiter. My current PCP was kinda shocked that I'd never been scanned for one before since I have Hypothyroidism. She ordered the scans, I got 'em. I have a goiter pressing on my carotid artery on the left, causing asymmetrical pulse. Weird, huh? But I'm fine. My goiter isn't even visible. Must be tiny. Tiny but annoying. In other news, I've worked at the same place for more than 3 months now. That hasn't happened since before the pandemic hit. It's a pretty great feeling. I don't make that much money and I work with a bunch of people who treat me like I'm made of fine China. But it's nice. It's a good job. I'm also the resident bird expert.

I feel like I've been manic for weeks! I actually ran outta meds more than a month ago and I haven't been able to get into the doctor to get more until tomorrow. I know, right? Florida healthcare. What're ya gonna do? Anyway, I apologize if this behavior has been rearing its ugly head, even online. Anyway, tomorrow I shall be vindicated! Er, medicated! Yeah... Still no job to go along with my mental health but I remain hopeful. Why? 'Cause I'm stupid. Ain't nobody gonna hire anybody in FL right now! We're dying! Ahh! I'm not. Been fully vaccinated. But, I spent the whole day looking at job boards and the only places that are hiring are healthcare facilities and Disney. I live too far away from there and have no money to move. I'm stuck in Melbourne, shiftless. What else is new? In the meantime, I'm rich with wildlife in my area these days. Just today, I saw a cat bend in half in his sleep, a curious snake, a bruiser of a raccoon and a cooperative cicada. I don't get to the park as